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In March 2020, Mayankita had come to home to accept a consultancy assignment after maternity break. With identification of a Corona positive cases in the office area, the offices got closed and she had to extend her stay to complete the formalities in the coming week. Her periods were due this week and she was scared because she had heard about the untouchability associated with menstruation in her in-law\u2019s home and was not sure how she would handle it. During one of her earlier visits, she had seen one of her sister-in-laws being given \u2018haldi<\/em> (turmeric) and \u2018gobar\u2019<\/em> (cow dung) to be put in water before taking head bath on getting periods. To avoid going through this herself, she used to plan all her home visits on days she would not menstruate by taking pills and manipulating the cycle. This time she was stuck. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Her dilemma:<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/h3>\n\n\n\n

Her fears came true and she got her periods. She discussed this with Amuli<\/em>, the domestic help, who suggested her not to tell anyone. Amuli <\/em>gave her the confidence that she would quietly help Mayankita with disposal of the sanitary napkins without letting anyone know at home. With the fear of the unknown and her own reactions to the practices she had never experienced in life, Mayankita took a stand and decided not to lie. Someday she had to face it and she decided to tell Maa<\/em>. The moment she disclosed it to Maa<\/em>, she could see Maa<\/em> distancing away from her physically. As expected, she asked Mayankita to take head bath and keep the clothes in a corner of the bathroom itself. She was informed that a \u2018dhoba<\/em>\u2019 (the washerwoman) would come and wash them to make them pure again. She had a bad cough so she requested if she could avoid washing her hair. Maa<\/em> was considerate and she allowed her to avoid washing hair but asked her to put some water on the hair as a ritual of washing. She was also given another privilege of not bathing in water with \u2018haldi and \u2018gobar<\/em>\u2019 in it. In her case she was given just \u2018haldi<\/em>\u2019.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The feeling of being an untouchable:<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/h3>\n\n\n\n
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Painting by Ms. Pushpita Roy<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n

She was confused about her emotional state. She was sad that she was going to be treated like an untouchable for the coming five days; everyone in the family would know that she was menstruating. Never in her life she had faced a situation where she had to tell other members of the family about her periods. She was embarrassed because such systems did not exist in her family or in families of all the friends she had known. The only one restriction she was aware of during periods was\u2014not to worship or visit temples. With the pain of all the emotional conflicts going inside her mind, she took shower, washed her hair and the stained clothes. On seeing her put the clothes for drying Maa<\/em> showed her annoyance as they were to be left in the bathroom and washed by the \u2018dhoba\u2019<\/em>. No logic worked and despite being washed with one of the best detergents, Mayankita had to leave her saree hanging in the corner room. The next day she found the saree washed by the \u2018dhoba\u2019 <\/em>again for purity sake.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The privileges and the taboos<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/h3>\n\n\n\n

Now was the time for all the dos and the don\u2019ts\u2014Don\u2019t touch everything; whatever you use or touch during these days will need to be washed by the \u2018dhoba\u2019<\/em> after five days; clothes will need to be washed by hand (washing machine was barred); don\u2019t enter kitchen or puja<\/em> room; food will be served, don\u2019t touch food items meant for others; wash your hair on day three (to be able to enter the kitchen) etc. Mayankita was also allowed the privilege of sleeping on the mattress with Shivangi (her two year old daughter) by her side but the empowered and strong woman in her was crying in her heart. All the monsters in her thoughts were laughing loud at her state. Mayankita was running a fever in the night but to avoid creating any unpleasant situation in Mayank\u2019s (her husband) absence, she did whatever she was asked to do. \u00a0<\/p>\n\n\n\n

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Sketch by Albin K. Anthony<\/figcaption><\/figure><\/div>\n\n\n\n

For the next two days, her movements were restricted; she could feel that her actions were being watched closely. She was aware of the privileges she was being given and the discrimination she had never thought she could live with. She was allowed to have dinner on dining table but the extra \u2018roti<\/em>\u2019 given to her was dropped in her plate before she could directly take it herself; the tea served to her was kept on the floor and not given to her directly from the tray because the person holding tray would become impure. Mayankita could feel the pain of the so called \u201cuntouchables\u201d in the society.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

The Lost opportunity\u2014family and work:<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/h3>\n\n\n\n

She had come home to discover the possibility of getting back to work on an assignment that required only ten days of her time in a month onsite. It was also an opportunity for her and Shivangi to spend time with the family every month. But on the third day, with high fever she had to take a head bath to be pure again. In the night, Shivangi came down with a fever. On the day she was to sign the contract, she sent an apology mail. She turned away from a possibly bright future due to the guilt of having risked Shivangi\u2019s well-being to please the significant others of her world. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Perceptions :<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/h3>\n\n\n\n

Before returning to the city of her stay before the formal lockdown began, she had a brief discussion with Maa<\/em> about the practices and menstrual taboos. She shared with her that she had ever known about these practices and was not comfortable following them. The explanation given to her was that when a woman is married, she must follow the customs and traditions of the family she is married into (very similar to what Mayankita’s own mother had taught her). That is how women in the family, including the daughters of the family, have been living. This is expected of every daughter-in-law of the family and if they do not follow, Maa<\/em> would not force them but would certainly be hurt. She shared her wish that she wanted these practices to be followed atleast till she was alive. Maa<\/em> also educated Mayankita on how strict things were during her times. Maa <\/em>shared that she was trying to be a liberal mother-in-law by ignoring so many things and allowing privileges that were not available to women in their times or even women at present in the family. Mayankita’s perceptions, however, were pointing towards the deprivation of the rights that she always had. But she very well understood that the socialization of 50+ years would not just go away in a day. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Her choice:<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/h3>\n\n\n\n

Mayankita knew that when we talk about changing these deeply rooted beliefs and practices, tied with the chains of culture and tradition, it sometimes takes a lifetime. Women in our country are protected by law but realizing them within the four walls of the households comes with the cost of relationships and Mayankita, perhaps, was not courageous enough to do it this time. She never believed in any of the discriminatory practices against anyone based on religion, caste, or sex but to avoid hurting others, she turned away from a possible future. But she was convinced, that someday, someone would take a stand and righteously make the change possible\u2026 if not her. Her choice, this time, was to stay away from the family and visit them only in times she was \u201cpure\u201d, as defined by the system. She was sure, she will never allow herself to go through this feeling of being this \u201cuntouchable me\u201d ever again. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

This cannot be the end of her journey of being a woman. Avoiding cannot be the solution forever and I am sure she’ll learn this soon, fight the battle and come out a winner. I know of another Mayankita who has chosen to break free by learning to say “No” to things she did not believe in. It wasn’t easy; it came with lot of labels for her in the package.She was hurt and had become unforgiving for a while. But she also learned the art of forgiving and letting go of unpleasant memories for a life full of all the significant others in her world. I will certainly share that journey in one of the following blogs. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

Reflections:<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/h3>\n\n\n\n

These practices are deeply rooted in age old norms and customs, created with a purpose, different from the reality of the modern times. Despite the changes in the roles and lifestyles, women are still considered impure during menstruation and are barred from participating in any religious ceremonies, celebrations, not only in the rural part of the country but also in urban families. Women, even in modern times, are treated like untouchables during menstruation; they are not allowed to use mattress\/pillows, touch other things that cannot be washed or things that are associated with the concept of \u2018purity\u2019 (like Gods, sacred thread, holy books etc). Even mothers and their newborns are untouchables for the initial few days after delivery. While many of these practices may come as a shock to women from different backgrounds, those who do not practice such rituals, may have to go through the experience of being considered impure, or lesser human beings, or looked down upon, and also discriminated against.<\/p>\n\n\n\n

It is observed that while both women and men may believe in standing against such norms at the society level, when it comes to their own families, their mothers\/parents\/families become more important and they give in to such discriminatory demands to avoid hurting their sentiments. The emotional trauma of being treated as an \u2018untouchable\u2019 is of no value and the burden of keeping everyone\u2019s sentiments into consideration again lies on the woman herself. It is not easy for her to overcome the fear of being labelled as \u201cbad\u201d (daughter, daughter-in-law, or a bad spouse) and take a stand. It is also not easy for the woman who derives all her powers within the family by following customs and traditions of the family to let go of them in a day and lose all her power and respect. \u201cWhat will people say\u201d and \u201cwill others approve of it\u201d guide her decision to stick to these customs. The onus of the change, therefore, should lie in hands of their male counterparts. Only they can make it possible. They, however, first need to be aware of these silently existing practices within the households.  <\/p>\n\n\n\n

My next blog will present findings of the study that identified 29 discriminatory beliefs\/practices\/taboos associated with menstruation and tried to assess the awareness of both women and men on these practices in our society. <\/p>\n\n\n\n

\u201cThe whole existence of life is based on menstruation <\/b><\/span><\/em>among women and if the people born out of such a system are valued, how can the blood be impure and how can the woman who is menstruating be impure?\u201d<\/span><\/em><\/strong><\/p>\n\n\n